There's nothing like a good blast from the past now and again.
I'd forgotten I had a plastic bag full of old diaries in the back of my cupboard. I found them today whilst trying to locate my spare hair straighteners (I found them, you'll no doubt be pleased to know).
Dating from 1992 - when I was 11 and just starting secondary school - to the year 2000 when I was well into my working career in the city, they bring back so many memories that I definitely would otherwise have forgotten.
I have to admit to finding the later years a more interesting read. I actually started to have a life after leaving school. Prior to then, there were a lot of entries like
Of course there was the a holiday here and there, a few birthdays and the odd row with a friend.
But for me the most interesting things about the early diaries are remembering the bands, movie stars and songs that were popular back in the cheesy-era of the early 1990's.
I loved Dinosaurs!
And look at this 'one to watch' from 1992 - some fella called Leonardo Di Caprio?
I knew he'd never amount to anything.
So I didn't have much of a love life when I was at school.
Correction: I didn't any ANY love life when I was at school. Ok, I did have a boyfriend when I was seven called Duane who I used to ride around on my bike with and who wrote 'I ❤ Caroline' across his knuckles.
But after that there was somewhat of a lull, reflected with frustration here
Where I wrote 'dido' above, I meant to write 'ditto'. Or was I predicting my future appreciation for the very bland English singer-songwriter? The former I think: I can't stand Dido.
I still love 'I Wonder Why' by Curtis Stigers.
So to try and make up for my total lack of real boyfriends that lasted up until I got my first part-time job in Homebase in 1996, I had many a celebrity crush. These included Jason Donovan, Jonathan Knight from New Kids On The Block, Liam Gallagher and Robbie Williams.
I also found this list in my 1995 diary: my top 20 list of men! With some very, very odd entries indeed
Some of the above mentioned people - most notably Robson Green and Will Carling - I don't remember liking at all! I think I was rather odd teenager.
I definitely remember this crush though
I was never really into school very much despite getting quite good exam results. I remember particularly disliking it around the '95 era when all anything seemed to be about was learning subjects I didn't enjoy (maths and science) and who was best friends with who. I remember on a couple of occasions I got back to school after having a day or two off sick only to find my best friend was now best buds with someone else! Why couldn't we all just be friends instead of 'best friends'? It seemed to go on all the time with the girls. Kids are very odd.
I found this note in my diary; a disagreement between two of my friends. I seem to be acting as peace-keeper on this occasion
Oh the drama! How I don't miss it!
But not only did my diaries keep up to date with the latest friendships and fights, but also all the big news stories.
That Diana entry went on for about two weeks-worth of pages! There was a lot to be written about I guess. That was a particularly BIG news day.
Not sure who that was meant to be.
I have to admit that I did make myself laugh - both laughing at myself and with myself. Bad spelling, the most boring anecdotes ever and lots of unnecessary drama. There are also so many little jokes, stories and phrases from comedy shows and comedians like Eddie Izzard that are littered throughout the diaries and that made me giggle. Remembering the times I was really fed up at school or upset with some boyfriend aren't a particularly enjoyable read but they do make me realise how far my life has come.
If only I could have reassured my fifteen-year-old self!